it-all-gets-better-i-promise asked: I'm not skinny, not the 'skinny' and 'attractive' that society makes out to be, I'm not this perfect figure of stick thin and beautiful..
And what makes society right about that, or anything for that matter? Skinny does not equal attractive, by any means… All my life, I grew up obese and thought I should try and be better, be skinnier, be more attractive for all these people who’s opinions I cared so much about, all so that they would like me more. As much as I tried to be what everyone else wanted though, I couldn’t be happy, and as time went on, I became increasingly depressed, spiraling down to my lowest point, which came dangerously close to being a one-way trip…
Eventually, though, I realized that by caring so much about other people’s opinions, from complete strangers even to my own friends and family, meant that I was disregarding myself, which is what formed my depression. I ultimately could not be what all of these other people wanted of me because it wasn’t what I wanted. I had to let go of my fears that people wouldn’t like me, because there will ALWAYS be people like that. I can only direct myself through life.
You cannot control what other people think, feel, or decide; and no one, whether it’s a stranger or your own family, can control you either. It has to be you that makes your own choices in life. It may hurt deep inside to watch someone you love make a decision you know in your heart is wrong, but the most you can ever do is tell them how you feel and hope they can make the right decision for themselves. It can be, and often times is, difficult to not care so much about people you love, but these are the struggles of life. Your decisions may cause strife, may lead you down some dark paths, but you can always choose to change and recover. You just have to want to.
On so many occasions I have seen your posts about break ups, how you feel singled out, like a black sheep in your own family, and generally how shitty you are feeling because of (from my point of view) other people in your life. Every single time I see it, I want to try and help you because most often I can very easily identify with what it is you’re going through. Whether you accept that help or not is not up to me, but you. The most I can do is tell you how I feel, and I feel that you are strong and able to make your own choices and make your life a happier one. I feel that you have the right to disregard anyone’s opinion, including mine, because in your life, only yours matters.
And to your original point about not being attractive, I find you incredibly attractive and, if I knew you in person, I wouldn’t hesitate for a second to ask you out. (& I know, the cool thing on Tumblr is to say stuff like that as Anon, but fuck that shit. I won’t hide how I feel because someone else thinks it’s weird.)
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Lens combines human and insect vision to focus wide-angle views
A lens invented at The Ohio State University combines the focusing ability of a human eye with the wide-angle view of an insect eye to capture images with depth.
The results could be smartphones that rival the photo quality of digital cameras, and surgical imaging that enables doctors to see inside the human body like never before.
Engineers described the patent-pending lens in the Technical Digest of the 25th IEEE International Conference on Micro Electro Mechanical Systems.
"Our eye can change focus. An insect eye is made of many small optical components that can’t change focus but give a wide view. We can combine the two," explained Yi Zhao, associate professor of biomedical engineering and ophthalmology at Ohio State. "What we get is a wide-angle lens with depth of field."
this smoke trick wins the internet
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When it comes to Halo, I love predicting where the story will take us and what events will unfold throughout. Since my first version of this seemingly disappeared, I had to make a new version. These are some plot points I feel will come up in Halo 5 based on what we’ve seen in the Reclaimer Trilogy thus far and the announcement trailer for Halo 5 that was debuted at E3 3013. Enjoy!
At the end of Spartan Ops S1, Halsey has been given a task from the Librarian while ONI has issued a order to kill her. After losing her arm, Halsey decides to go rogue (again). After seeing this and recalling Master Chief disobeying Captain Del Rio’s orders to do what he knew was right, I couldn’t shake the feeling that we might see the Chief fall into a similar rhythm as Halsey. He may not necessarily leave the UNSC with vengeance as his motive but, instead, in order to ensure humanity’s survival (and to recover some form of Cortana?). The Chief would be going rogue to get the job done.
Also in Spartan Ops, we finally get a quick glimpse of Marie Ozman, former spartan II and the new head of ONI. When we meet her in the games, she is draped in dramatic lighting and shadows that give her a menacing look about her. When she gives the order to kill Dr. Halsey, the tone in her voice screams revenge over duty. Lasky, the paladin and moral compass (if there ever was one) of the Halo series, calls this order into question. More and more, Ozman seems to be taking on the mantle of a villain or, at the very least, an antagonist towards Halsey and, I suspect, Master Chief. Being that she’s also a major part of the glasslands trilogy, where ONI’s questionable ethics are brought to light numerous times, 343 has clearly set Ozman up for a major role in the Reclaimer trilogy. Being that MC seems to be completely on his own in the E3 trailer, it would come as no surprise to me that Ozman and John will be butting heads early on in Halo 5 (possibly in a halo 2-esque opening scene of a trial/debriefing of John in those oh-so-secret ONI meetings where most of humanity’s choices are made).
In the 3 act structure of storytelling, the second act tends to be the darkest and heaviest to endure for the protagonist, not to mention the audience. In the E3 trailer, we see Chief in a cloak and a helmet that looks ready to shatter. I agree with the cloak theory about Chief’s chest piece being partial, if not gone all together. Either way, his armor seems to be in critical condition and getting worse (a good analogy for the second act as a whole). This may also lead the Chief to finally be getting that smelly old armor traded in for some fancy new diggs. We will more than likely see the Chief, and possibly all of humanity, brought down in, what may be, a catastrophic way (the return of the flood and/or of the didact?). We also see the chief still holds onto Cortana’s chip, possibly indicating that he’s looking for her (what did the librarian do to her when they met??). The fact that he’s holding onto her has created some major baggage for him and is acting as a motivational force for him, but it may just be that his hunt for Cortana will bring the aforementioned downfall.
With the Chief’s enhanced evolution, thanks to the librarian, does he possibly now have some enhanced abilities when it comes to forerunner tech?? In the E3 trailer, he practically summons that huge forerunner bird ( a war sphinx??). Between each act there is generally a setting change. Being that announcement trailers/E3 demos tend to take place at the end of the first act (at least with Halo games), this giant forerunner bird thing may act as a means of transport for the Chief. There are more explicit examples of this sort of change in Halo 2 and 3 when the Chief goes from Earth to Installation 05 and the Ark, respectively. It could just as well be the first major boss of the game, but I’m inclined to think otherwise.
There’s not enough 117s here.
My spartan has reached his full potential. Can I stay at SR117 forever?
Your Brain Calls in Backup to Find Lost Things
When you lose something important—a child, your wallet, the keys—your brain kicks into overdrive to find the missing object. But that’s not just a matter of extra concentration. Researchers have found that in these intense search situations your brain actually rallies extra visual processing troops (and even some other non-visual parts of the brain) to get the job done.